My body isn't responding to the fertility drugs as well as it did last time. A few years ago, we hit the mark on the first and lowest dosage and two months later I was pregnant. This time around, we got nothing. Before we got that news, I had been feeling confident. The test results really shook me for a while.
Discussing my results and previous pregnancy history with the nurse on the phone, she made the remark "Oh, but you're proven." Why, yes, I'm a proven breeder - much like a blue-ribbon heiffer at the county fair. I'm not angry at her at all, but I did feel a little like a 4-H animal.
It is discouraging, especially under the effects of these medications., but I try to remember that I know we've seen miracles, and prayers answered. I know the Lord makes all things beautiful in His time, not mine. I know that sometimes we're broken so that in healing, He can make us stronger.