Thursday, December 22, 2011

Merry and Bright and Imperfect this Christmas

The last two years, I've joked "may your days be harried and bright."  Sometimes Christmas can feel that way.  In the song I shared last week, the lyrics Why so scared that you'll mess it up? When perfection keeps you haunted, all we need is your best, my love.  That's all anyone ever wanted jumped out at me.  We've made some changes, some tough decisions and taken a step back from some things, and I was very worried about other's opinions, very scared I would mess it up.  So I've let some things go, and it has felt almost like I was letting out the breath I'd been holding just to prove that I could.  

There have been things this Christmas that have gone undone.  Advent Calendars, Christmas baking, card delivering, some books to read and some movies to watch have all been absent.  There have been no handmade gifts this year, and I'm surprised at how okay with it I am.   I'm breathing it away, reminding myself that my children won't remember not having them- they would remember a mom who lost her mind because we didn't.   I know that years from now, gifts will be sitting in the pile to take to Goodwill, and my boys aren't old enough to miss the things we've decided to skip.  

I hope they'll remember family time together, brother shopping at the dollar store, making s'moreos on the stove, and paper snowflakes hanging from the ceiling.  There are enough things to worry about.  I have decided that for me, a perfect Christmas won't be one of them.  

And that, in a way, makes it perfect. 

Merry Christmas from the Telford Home.  

May your days be Merry and Bright, and imperfect, too.  Give yourself that gift this Christmastime. 


balloongal said...

Sometimes it's best to simplify. As long as the actual important things are there. Your husband. Your sons. The love that comes from just being together.
And remember that the Savior is who Christmas is really about and as long as you let Him in your home, your Christmas will be right.
I think your family is wonderful and you are a blessing in my life. Merry Christmas.

Chiconky said...

Perfect! And you guys are adorable. Merry Christmas!

Audrey said...

This is the perfect post for today-- I so needed to read it!

Also, I love your Christmas photo :)

Elizabeth said...

Oh I agree- you're supposed to enjoy the holiday, not beat yourself up over it. It's supposed to be about family time. I've been so busy with school and I had to decide what was most important and let the rest go. As your boys get older, they may remember certain toys but overall they'll remember the love that your family has for one another.