Friday, July 10, 2009

Pensive Morning

I'm asking myself a lot of questions today.
Do I say "Yes" enough to Stinky, or is it too often "not now?" Are there too many kiddie gates in his life, literal and figurative? Are they for his safety or my convenience? Am I too plugged in and not connected enough? What decisions are making me happy, and which ones are making me entirely too stressed out? Will the pressure I have been feeling this week finally wear off after closing on the house and my brother's wedding are done? Have I made too many committments? Or do I just need to be committed?

I want to be the mom in the picture more often- connected, in the moment, happy. I think I've been focusing on some of the wrong things. Too much Martha, not enough Mary. Lots to think about.
I'm so blessed to have my family; WBH and Stinky are the best parts of everything. Am I doing enough for them, or am I too focused on my own pursuits?
Sorry for the emo. We now return to your regularly scheduled programming.


M said...

Not too much emo.

I think and fret on these things ALL. THE. TIME. It's nice to know that I'm not alone.

Man, I wish I could see you as a mom.

Desirae Pitt said...

thanks for the post.makes me start to evaluate my mommyness...thanks!

Melissa said...

I also wish I could be more connected and in the moment with my children. I can relate to this post as I bet most moms can. Thanks for sharing.

P.S. I love that picture

TheresaXXX said...

I love that picture of you and Stinky!

earwaxtasteslikecrayons said...

I'm so behind on my blog-reading. What a great photo and a thoughtful post. That living-more-in-the-moment has been a hard thing for me to learn. Good for you that you're already doing it with your first child.